Rehearsals for two amazing shows. I get to go perform one of these shows at the Kennedy Center American College Theatre Festival in LA next month - a huuuge honor. 18 credit hours. AAT.
And being surrounded by my beautiful friends. Amazing teachers. Beautiful costumes. Working on my art every single day. I am truly blessed.
This week I had what was literally one of the hardest days of my entire life up until now. I haven't been able to sleep lately (3 hours a night. ugggh) and I was just EXHAUSTED. Mentally and physically. and I had lost my phone. And I just felt like I sucked at everything that I want so badly to be great at.
The minute I stepped foot into my house I just started sobbing. Sweet husband put my in a lovely bath and cleaned our house. And while I was sobbing and sobbing, I couldn't help but think about how truly lucky I am.
I know that I am growing in what I do. Every day I learn more and I become better. Some days are hard, and it feels like you take a step back, but those days are so necessary. It means that I'm trying. And that means the world to me.
I never thought I would be able to be an artist. I have always had the passion and the desire, but I never had the courage. I was always too scared and I let my fears rule the roost so I took my eye off of my goals.
But now I am where I want and need to be. I am trying. And I am going to have terrible days. And I am going to have amazing days. And they'll all be worth it.
And I get to be around great people every day. And I come home to the most supportive husband. I have a beautiful, warm home. I have the support of an amazing family. I am doing what I love.
So, life is insane. But I'm happy. And now I have sleeping pills, so things should be getting even better!
Here are some picies of what we've been doing so far this 2013
|Tanner at our house on New Years Eve. I love my tree! And my Tanner!|
|New friend Ruby|
|Shelb, Tan, and Maggie looking thriiilled to ring in the new year|
|Trent, Shae, Tanner, and Maggie. HAPPY NEW YEAR!|
|Hottest New Years kiss goes to ME! I get to kiss that sexy man every year!|
|My Beautiful Shelby and Ruby|
|This is what 6:30 AM looks like from our apartment window|
|I'm just happy!|
|We watched the Golden Globes with two of my favorite gaybies. I love the Knuthops!|